GayMenDancing

For some reason every time I try to save my old art from storage and deactivate this account for good, I find myself hesitating to do so and putting it off for a couple more months until months became years. 
I think it's nostalgia, mostly for me, because I grew a lot here as both a person as well as an artist-- and I enjoy looking back from time-to-time to see how much I've improved. 

My biggest pet peeve in the entire world is when people leave dead accounts without deleting them. In my past experience, they're usually used used to keep 'half an eye' on someone(s), or for other manipulative reasons. There's no one I'm really lurking here, except my former self. Even so, I feel like a hypocrite for keeping this account as long as I have. 

There's some part of me that knows the next personal project I take seriously (really, seriously) probably doesn't belong on tumblr, and likely wont ever belong on here. In addition, there's a lot of unpleasant memories tied to this account, as well as good ones. I feel like if I keep this account, it has to serve a better purpose besides looking-back.

The truth is, I'm not sure what kind of purpose this account might serve-- or if it will have one at all. 
I'm at a very weird point in my life, artistically. My project is constantly on my mind and I am constantly working on it and thinking about it, and I've improved so much in the last two years-- but I've never cranked out such a small amount of art on a monthly basis. I've never drawn less. 

It's so weird working this slow. I'm just praying the payoff (whatever the payoff looks like) is worth it. 

Uh.

What else..
I guess if you feel like reaching out to me, you'll know how to do so, and if you don't, you can drop me an anonymous message of encouragement (or hate, idc) with this nifty thing. Just. If you want to.
 
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I'm sorry for those whom I have met who have no other way to contact me, and to those I might have inconvenienced by storing all of my artwork, but I plan to deactivate in the future. When exactly that is, I'm not sure. It could be in a few days or in a few weeks or a year. I've had a lot of good experiences and not-so-good experiences, but I don't think DA is right for me as an artist, an activist, or a person anymore. I have so much uploaded here, it's going to take a while for me back it up and decide what is worth saving, but until then--

*If there's a piece of mine that you want to see again or have access to, please message me about it. Whether it's fanart, literary, an activism thing, it doesn't matter. Depending on what it is I can link you to it's new home on the internet, or I might just give it to you to do with as you please. Just ask. 

*If it's a cosplay picture of some sort and it's of you and you're mad that it's gone, I apologize, but chances are it's on my computer and if you want it, I'd be more than happy to give it to you! Just ask.

*I'm already not very active on here anymore, but if you want means to contact me, feel free to ask. 

There's a lot of you on here that I've become friends with on tumblr or elsewhere as well, so no harm done there. And I figure if there's anyone out there who wants to reach out, then... they will. Thank you to everyone who's ever fav'd, commented, or said anything nice about my art, without the encouragement I would have likely given up art a long time ago. My decision doesn't invalidate that-- it meant, and still means, the W O R L D to me. 

For more detailed explanations, again, please ask. 

You have something important to say, but note me, please.
Comments in journals are fine, relevant comments are fine. 

Just refrain from posting unrelated, random comments on my art, okay? 
If I post a picture and you decide to comment, make sure it's related to the art or the character(s) depicted, at least?
It's not a lot to ask.  

I've been really relaxed about that in the past, but now if I see that happening, I'm just
going to hide it and not reply to it at all. I'm not trying to come off as salty, I've just been
(WOAH) actually trying harder to improve and to be honest it's annoying, and it's been happening a lot on a lot
of my older work and I'd rather it stop. 

Not only is it impolite, but it's actually against DA's rules.

I'm sure a lot of artists out there feel the same way I do. This isn't directed at anyone in particular and I'm
not mad, I'm just saying how I'll respond to it going forward. That's all! 

 


 
... No I'm just mad tumblr wont let me post any of these without breaking them up so I put them here sorry haha. That is all. 

Heyyyy So,

I've been giving it some thought and realized I have been on DeviantArt for six years (seven next month) now, and there's so much stuff in my gallery.
Fan-art, my cosplay, other people's cospaly, OC-art/projects, personal art and some writing in relation to all of those things-- there's just A LOT OF STUFF.

I've improved a lot since I started, at least I'd like to think so, and I know a lot of people would rather just delete their account and start over with a new one when they feel their gallery has gotten cluttered, however-- I'm way too much of a sentimental person for that. The thought makes me sad. So, I've decided to do a massive gallery clean-up and basically put anything I feel isn't that great / irrelevant / no longer reflects me well as an artist into scraps. _{I'll also be cleaning up some journal entries that irritate me because they're a reminder of times in the past that I've moved on from.}  

So what I'm getting at is if there's something in my gallery that you really like right now you might want to save it or something because it might not be there by midnight. If you're reading this after the fact and want a piece of mine that I've scrapped just ask me after the fact and I'll probably give it to you. 

Thank you for understanding!